After being shut in for two days because of the 2 and a half feet of snow outside my door, I have had a lottttt of time to think, and think, and think some more and BAM these are where my problems arise from. Too much time with my thoughts and not enough time at yoga creates anxiety in my life. Granted I believe that 'me' time is important and thinking things through is a must, but when my thoughts get too in depth and I begin entering the world of craziness a little yoga always seems to help me get back on track, clear my mind and be 'normal' again and with the snow my 'normal' life has gotten quite off balance.
I finally just returned from my first trip out of the house in 2 days and where do I go, the mall! (Retail therapy also seems to really help me). I have been driving myself nuts with trying to figure out where my dating life is leading me. Questioning everything I've done and reading into everything he has said and done over the last 5 weeks. On top of that there is the added pressure of V-day creeping around the corner in 3 days. I am now back on my bed, where I have spent almost all of the last 2 days, and I feel like I am in a whole new mental state. I don't know if it was the fresh air, the excitement of 2 hours of yoga in less than an hour or the 3 new shirts I bought at the mall, but my thoughts have done a 180 (I'd say 360, but let's not push it)!
I think I spend so much time thinking about why things aren't happening and stop paying attention to what fun things are happening. Yes I would still like to know if I will have v-day plans or any plans this weekend with the guy for that matter, but my anticipation of that has gone from a 10 down to a 3 in the last few hours. My focus is now on what IS planned, not what MIGHT happen or could happen. I have plans to go skiing all day tomorrow with 2 future summer roomies (should be verrrry interesting), and then going to see v-day with the girl summer roomies at night!! and Saturday I'll be partying it up in AC with my long lost best friend B and the boys which is always an excellent time (here's to hoping Lady Gaga makes an appearance). As for Sunday, my tenative plans are to go back to my college days in a more sophisticated way, by drinking wine at an upscale steak house and just letting life and the wine flow as it pleases.
So here's to my Vday weekend beginning in only a few hours and spending it with my favorite people who are always there for me and make me smile/laugh like no other can! This Valentine's day Ill be celebrating with the love of friends and immersing myself in the things that ARE happening instead of the things that aren't. And who knows, maybe after two hours of yoga that 3 will diminish to a 1 :)
